I started this post around Thanksgiving last year, but then I let it slip away as I worked through some pretty major life changes.
It's not like there haven't been moments over the past year when I thought, "hey! I should write a post about this" (I completed a half marathon and beat my goal time; Twin Peaks is coming back). But then the moment passed, and I didn't really feel compelled to share anything. I guess I could've easily let this blog fade away.
But the list-making, spreadsheet-tracking part of me is prone to documenting things, and compelled me to revive this. So for the record: last fall I decided to make a big leap, and now this month I'm going back to school to become a doctor. Not a PhD, like I imagined while in undergrad, but a (hopefully) board-licensed physician. There are moments lately when I have trouble processing this, imagining what my life will be like in 10 years when I'd finally be out on the other side. Mostly I just hope that my dog will be alive at that point! Overwhelmingly, however, I am filled with excitement and happiness--I even feel a lightness of relief in knowing that this is the right thing for me and that I don't have to worry about my "calling" in life anymore.
Since last summer, I've been reading almost exclusively non-fiction medical books/articles. Notably, it started with Mountains Beyond Mountains (a book my mom gave me during college, in the hopes that it would reignite my passion for medicine...she turned out to be right, though off by about 7 years), and then moved swiftly to Atul Gawande's small but substantial body of work (not counting the wonderful backlog of his New Yorker articles that I have yet to completely read). The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks was also memorable, and there were a couple of more technical books on pregnancy/birth/reproductive health thrown in there as well (for work). I'm hoping to squeeze in Sheri Fink's Five Days at Memorial, but with only a few weeks until school starts and math review that I've been putting off for weeks now, I'm not sure that's going to happen. I'm also still trying to find time to watch the doc Cancer: The Emperor of All Maladies (and read the book too, maybe), but Breaking Bad still holds my attention through Season 4, even as it elevates my blood pressure like crazy to watch it!!
I'm not even sure if this should be a part of the same post, but I would like to have an ongoing record of what's happening with my personal style. For the past few months I've been mostly wearing scrubs. I currently work at UPenn's hospital, often for several 12-hour overnight shifts at a time, and so I basically leave the house in scrubs, come home, and crash. I really can't be bothered to function as a normal human being, let alone dress myself. For a while this made it easier to curb my shopping (no time for online browsing/no foreseeable point to dressing up), but now that I'm going back to school there's been a flurry of add-to-cart, textbooks aside.
So far in 2015 I've been pretty good about keeping my spreadsheet of purchases updated (and to a minimum), though I have spent a fair amount on things that I've wanted for a long time, but that I now fear will serve little utility. Do I really need multiple leather jackets? Do I have too many shoes considering on most days I either wear Nike Frees or Danskos? I suppose the bigger problem is that I tend to buy multiples of things that I perceive to be useful: i.e. backpacks, "sturdy" bags (I have a Filson
p.s. is anyone else as excited as I am about the upcoming BBC production of Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell?